The gym is usually my happy place. A place where I am not judged for my size and weight but only my skill. I am used to in tournaments people not rolling with me due to my size and weight but not in the gym. I don’t understand why people do this in tournaments either. I don’t try to destroy my toys, even if I don’t like the person personally I won’t try to hurt them. I am very considerate when I am rolling with people smaller than me because I don’t want to hurt them to the point it disadvantages me at times. So when someone dodges me and then says they only want to roll with with people their size it is a bit frustrating again.
I am 5 feet and about 250 pounds, there is no one at my gym that is my size. I don’t pick and choose who I roll with. There may be a person I avoid due to a past experience for them being too spastic, but after some time has passed I will try to roll with them again because people do change and get less spastic. But to flat out say I’m not going to roll with someone because of their size I find a bit disrespectful. Just because you are an average size and weight doesn’t mean you get to write off someone bigger than you. You can learn something from everyone, just because your are getting smashed right now doesn’t mean that will be forever.
I will roll with whoever, I don’t care, I can learn something from everyone at the gym. From the newest white belt through black belt. I always learn something from whoever I roll with, it doesn’t matter if they are bigger and taller than me. It helps me get better.
Last night, the gym was not my happy place. When people dodge me due to my size, for a moment it makes me want to quit. Why do I come back day after day to be the biggest female at the gym. To be avoided due to my size. But then i realize, im the one that will continue to get better and be willing to take any smashing given. I can stand tall and say that I don’t avoid anyone on the mats.
The gym will continue to be my happy place. It one of the reason I still survive. And for those who wish not to roll with me, thats fine, there will always be a smaller person to smash you as well. 🙂
Shout out to all of the people who have haven’t been afraid to roll with me.
So back to meal prepping land this week going to be cooking up some good stuff. After competing on Saturday just makes me keep wanting to make my goal of hitting the Heavy Division by next year. So the menu for this week is:
Breakfast: Oatmeal with my nature-box Granola with Sausage
Also Almond milk with Greens powder
Snack: Jerky stick and almonds
Lunch: My favorite sesame honey chicken burrito bowl with brown rice and guacamole salsa
Snack: Might Muffins or tuna with triscuits
Dinner: Taco Ground turkey and vegetables
Snack: Sorbet if i have the calories
Getting back to the grind of food prep to that my body can be prepped for battle 🙂
So this past weekend, I competed for the first time as a blue belt at the IBJJF Atlanta Winter Open and it was a great experience. I received my blue belt back in September right after there Atlanta Summer Open. There were some differences from competing as a white belt to a blue belt and most of them are good.
- I now compete earlier in the day vs. later in the afternoon. I prefer earlier so I can get back to eating.
- Now I can do the open class vs. as a white belt there is no open class.
- It didn’t apply to this tournament, but I can now do no-gi tournament since I have received my blue belt since white belts are not allowed to.
- Just have a different mindset now being a blue belt vs a white belt.
This time my division had 6 people in it, it always interesting that registration will close and have only 4 but then some how 2 more people appear 2 days after it has closed. So I got the bye in the first round so in the second round I went up against a woman who was taller and probably heavier than me. She basically laied on top of me for the entire round at the end I started trying to come up but she won on point. I was very proud of my performance for some reason people may think is crazy but here they are:
- My gi top did not come over my head.
- She did not yank my gi top over my head.
- My pants did not come down
- My rash guard did not come up .
- My belt stayed tied the entire match
Most people who roll with me know what kind of feat that was not have that happen.
If you would like to watch my match here is the link to video: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fOY-CBgi6wY
Because I had the bye in the first round, I ended up with 3rd place for this tournament.
I then waited around until the open which was supposed to go on at 5:40 but we probably didn’t start the Blue Belt Adult female divisions until 6:30. My first match in this division was against another Super Heavy girl who had taken 2nd in our division. I don’t have a video of that match, but she won on points by getting me into the guard and i would try to break it and she would get me right back into her guard. I could tell she was very frustrated with me. She busted both my top and bottom lip so I bled all over her nice white gi. She may have won the match, but she will always have my blood on her gi. So now I have that tournament out of the way and have stuff to start working on.
I do have a question though: does anyone else get super hungry after tournaments? I do by what I ate after the tournament. I ate all of it.
Today will be a two post day as I will also being doing my meal planning for this week later today.
Even here in the south we get hit by snow so sometimes. The weather people got it right this time and at my house we received about 7 inches of snow in about a day. We are not prepared for this ever. And I did not go to the store the night before, but I was prepared with plenty of food in my deep freezer so we have plenty to eat. But now I am getting back to grind this week so here is my meal plan for this week.
Breakfast: Oatmeal with Granola, Chicken Sausage, Green Powder w/ Almond Milk
Snack: Ostrim Jerky and Nuts
Lunch: Shredded Beef Burrito Bowl w/ Brown Rice
Link for the the recipe for the meat: http://www.thecookingjar.com/slow-cooker-shredded-beef-tacos/
Snack: Mighty Muffins or Protein Cookies
Dinner: Sesame Honey Chicken with Vegetables
Here is the link for the chicken: http://www.skinnytaste.com/2013/02/crock-pot-sesame-honey-chicken.html
I have started meal prepping on Monday, since I am at home already I can make sure that my food doesn’t burn. It is working at much better for me since I use that day to recover anyway and I’m stressing about how I will get it done on the weekend. Since most of my food goes in the crockpot, it only takes a few minutes while I’m working from home to get it set up and cooking.
I have been training hard for the last few weeks getting ready for the first competition of the year at the Atlanta Open next weekend. This is going to be a good year I can feel it. Got out in the snow for the first time to go open mat at Jiu-Jitsu Nation and got a lot of good work in. Felt good to get out and train hard.
So as we come to the end of the year, it is time to reflect back over what has been done. This year, I tried new things by completing a half marathon as well as leveled up in Jiu-Jitsu back in September.
All year I have been working to lose weight and it really didn’t go that well. I tried Paleo through about May and I did see about a 6 pound drop during all of that time. It was really difficult to not see any weight loss on that diet after all of the research saying that I should see some more than that. I have been working hard to see weight differences, but I am not seeing drastic change on the scale. What I have seen though is a differences is in inches and body composition. Around September I stared going to the Transformat10n Lab here in Nashville. By going to the Lab, I realized that I was not eating enough calories in the day so my body was retaining the fat vs burning it to make me lose weight. Now I have an accurate account of how many calories that I need to intake to lose weight. So now this going to be a game changer for me next year with my diet and eating habits. I have really started meal prepping, now a day so I know how many calories I am eating at any time. That has been a great help to me, so I can know how many calories I am eating to make sure that I get enough.
Long Distance Running I have learned is not for me. I can appreciate the people who enjoy it, but I think i rather do some other type of activity. Going into the new year I will probably try to do some 5k, but not much more than that. It takes away too much training time from what I really enjoy most and that is being on the mats.
This year, I have learned so much about myself through doing jiu-jitsu. I really do get antsy if I go too many days without being being on the mats. There is really something peaceful about it for me and I am so happy that i took that leap over 2 years ago to get started. I feel like there is nothing that make a person feel more alive then getting their ass handed to them on a regular basis. I can’t wait to see what next year will have in store for me. I know that I am going to keep moving forward and keep the monument that I gained this year. 2015 was truly a great year but I know going into 2016 it will be even better. There is going to a leprechaun domination. I plan on doing more next year and getting better. In the new year I will also be posting my meal prep menus as I have had a lot of comments of what I am eating though my pictures.
is me getting my Blue Belt. Yeah, that’s right, on September 1, 2015, I obtained my blue belt in Brazilian Jiu-Jitsu. I had no clue, that was going to be the day that I got my blue belt and quite a lot has changed for me since I got it. I am in the best shape that I have ever been in my life and still getting better every day. When I first started, I was a month out from having finishing my masters so I wanted to find something to do with my newly found free time. I had remembered Nashville MMA from when I was younger and they used to be in 100 Oaks mall. I didn’t have the time or money then, but always said one day I will go do it. I started on September 10, 2013 with the intro to MMA class, because I didn’t have a gi at the time and I felt like death after that first class was over.
Now after 10 competitions and almost 2 full years of training, I have obtained the rank of blue belt, which is a huge step, most people who start never get here, but I have stayed with it for 2 years and it something that I plan on continuing to do as long as I can. The end goal for me is always black belt. I have learned so much about myself over these last 2 years. I am able to do so many things that I thought I wouldn’t be able to do. I have learned that my weight and height can be advantage where in a lot of other places they are not. I have learned how to be more social and have made a lot of friends that I trust to release when I tap. I have learned so much about they call the gentle art.
I survived my belt test with probably close to 30 people including 7 black belts on the mat the night I got my blue belt. This isn’t something that I plan on stopping anytime soon. I may take a week of to let my body recover so I can come back stronger, but I am fully committed to continuing to do jiu-jitsu.
I do want to say thank you to my professors and teammates, who have all taught me something a long the way. That you understand that I can’t see without my glasses on so you come grab when we are rolling. It has been a great two years and this is something I will continue doing. I have learned to fight to the death and to never give up.
This is a picture of me after my belt test with all of the black belts. I survived and they are holding me up after the aftermath with my shinny new blue belt.